I have settled in at Smith College and classes start tomorrow.
Sometimes I find myself wondering what I have gotten myself into.
I retaliate with the thought that perhaps this is where I am suppose to be, perhaps this will be good for me.
I couldn't imagine being in any other house here at Smith.
I can imagine being at other colleges.
I wonder if any of them are really different.
I didn't want a party college. I'm at one. Time will tell how often. Tonight is Convocation, I suppose I can let it slide.
I believe in close-toed shoes, skirts below the knees, and never would have imagined myself only wearing a scarf for a top and a short skirt.
It was my choice. I have always been at opposition to myself.
I find I don't know where I'll be.
Smith College. A world in its own. A bubble, blocking out the hostility of society.
Is it really a good idea to do that?
I shall save my final opinion to the end of this year.
When I first arrived, it was different then I thought it would be. Different, but better.
I am no longer sure if it is better. I am no longer sure that I am not lowering my standards to be here.
I almost feel that Smith lies in their presentation of their college.
Time will tell.
Cheers.
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